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2008-10-18T06:13:00.000-07:00

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2008-10-17T07:36:00.000-07:00

It is english...It's so terrible.

Failed...And greatest of all, I failed terribly...37 out of 80 percent.
Well I also failed my English for mid year if I not wrong? Even If i passed, it's disgustingly along the passing-failing border.
Yucks.I really wanna get to Sec 4 ya...
Sigh

All the other subjects I didn't really do well...
But whatever... I tried.

2008-10-13T07:43:00.000-07:00

I guess...This's to her...For she's been a wonderful person...
A wonderful friend to many.

She's got sunshine smiles,
She's cheerful and wild.
Tears build up to form wells,
Which potrayed sadness that was felt

Happiness is not yet found,
With those hatred that surrounds.
It's just scary the way things are,
She'd start questioning her own heart.

It's just hard to tolerate

2008-10-11T18:33:00.000-07:00

There may be smiles all over her face...
But I know there's more to it...

Sigh.

2008-10-11T07:48:00.000-07:00

Sometimes...
If you looked around you...
There's always things that'd cheer you up...
Just look at a brighter side,
For it may be raining here, but on the other side, it's gleaming with light...

There's things i really can't tolerate,
For I simply dont understand why can a person make lives of the people around her, so chaotic, so disgusting

2008-10-10T02:53:00.000-07:00

This video really... is... scary...I mean... it's just ... scary ... as in...well, you'd know if you watch it.Not ghosts la O_O

Examinations is over! I am so happy!@

Well... I had been waiting for this day since the start of the horrible week...Well, i think my results gonna suck, real lot, but yea, there's nothing much I can do about it, Well... I just will have fun for these few days :)

2008-10-04T18:57:00.001-07:00

Something I find very entertaining
Cyril Takayama is a famous illusionist.
Below is a video whereby he perform a very marvellous hamburger trick

2008-10-04T07:00:00.000-07:00

I am bored...
Really bored...
From studying...
One thing that really motivates me, *Not really all the time, but at times* IS that hey, exam's gonna be over in less than a work, pretty cool!

Oh , there's this channel 8 show, Crime Busters x2, really horrifying, and very funny show...
xD

This week has been okay...
Been great and memorable, in a way or another ;]
Must treasure all the great moments we have as friends, as classmates...Cause...It's going to be another few more months before all of us get real stressed up due to O' lvls.

2008-09-30T21:30:00.000-07:00

Well...
I am just getting really really bored...

Today is children's day.
So happy children's day to everyone.
Once a child,forever one
Hari Raya to all malays !
=]

Fell sick again...This is so so so terrible.

Ah

2008-09-28T20:31:00.000-07:00

F1 is over... I find it a bore to watch... Especially watching 18 cars that zoomed around circuits for 61 times, that's simply crazy... And imagine how sweaty they will be after each race, ..
It's boring, but funnily, i Still ended up watching. But anyway, it's so drama packed, cars got crashed, from a worth maybe hundreds of thousands of dollars car to worthless pieces of squashed metals...It's a disaster for Ferrari.
And Massa, sigh.

Still in no muggy mood. My goodness!
Okay,after this must really work hard.

:'(

Hate to revise for examinations, cause there's so much to touch on, and you simply won't know where to start from...

2008-09-26T19:17:00.000-07:00

Apparently, I screwed up both language compos...
lol. For english, it's totally a disaster.I used simple languages, and I sound rather rude(It's meant to address the principal and the teachers) and very out of point for situational...
Ah well it's over, pointless to dwell over it...

About a week more to go!

Hip Hip Hooray!

2008-09-23T05:33:00.000-07:00

Woah...

Today is very energy draining... Felt extremely when I reached home, just sat down and just lay my head on the table.Fell asleep and stuff...

Everyday is getting more and more tiring. For me and for everyone obviously...

Most people, and definetly including me, is getting all panicky for I realized, everything just got out of my head.

Well Hope all goes well.

And goodluck for your end of years.

2008-09-21T01:02:00.000-07:00

Week's been over...
So another four days to go, and the terror begins...

You know, it's ridiculous to even have lessons on Thursday...

Sigh...
Time passes so fast...
It's gonna be October soon...

Everything's slipping through my very own fingers...
I just can't hold on to any...
Further and further it goes... and POOF it's gone
:)

2008-09-17T08:12:00.000-07:00

Days are stretching longer and longer...
Less than a month to go...
OH YAY

Look at the bright side ;D

2008-09-16T03:09:00.001-07:00

YIP Pin Xiu
Won singapore's first PARALYMPICS gold medal...
Grats!

So screwed for physics common test. Hais...
This week...Everyone was busy...SO busy...
Getting work done...Doing revision...
Ah...
How boring

2008-09-12T05:00:00.000-07:00

Failed chemistry again...
How I wish I could live up to her expectations...
It's really terrible...Really terrible to live down those standards
I felt bad and perhaps that's why everytime I sees her,
I feel guilty.
Maybe it's just me not putting in effort, maybe it's just this...
But who else are we to blame, We can't blame the paper, for the paper is easy,we can't blame the teacher, for she's gone through everything, I can only blame me and myself, for not working hard enough, it sucks, to fail... and it's just me being stupid...
Oh great...
I'm getting more paranoid and being such a pessimist...

Ms phoon talked to me, and she told me that I'm a timid person, from her inferences, she concluded that I'm scared of teachers, and yes I do, certain teachers, but teachers that are friendly like her, I ain't really afraid... Everyone, like let's say, the aged, they I am sure, that they're afraid of doctors, well doctors have this 杀气 and after consulting doctor,doctors'd diagnosed their illness as this and that, and it really got them so worried about their health and so , so of course, they'd be scared at the thought of clinic visits. For students, well, now, in this world, most , for some are not afraid of teachers, so and that's one of the many ways how teachers have power over the students, because we "fear" them. Who aren't " scared " of persons of a higher authority that yourself, another example, an employee, will always fear the boss... Sigh... Like hey, I wished I had the courage also ya, I mean who don't....
Well, my mind just went empty, for one moment after hearing that, and she continued... saying that I had no confidence in myself, and again, yes I do, well, most times, I don't feel confident at all, I mean... There's reasons why ... And whether if one is confident or not really really depends on what circumstances you're dealing with or what kind of situations you're in.

During training, i just felt very happy...
For what reasons I don't know... Perhaps at the prospect of sleeping for really long hours make me so hype...Funny how little things bring such joy to you for awhile so...

Here's a video which I really realy find it funny...Enjoy and LAUGH OUT LOUD

2008-09-10T06:54:00.000-07:00

Singapore's first paralympic Medal...
Won by, TAN Laurentia

It's funny,
Live telecast of Singaporeans in the Olympics, and none of the live action of the Paralympics...Live telecast and encore telecast of the opening ceremony of the Olympics, yet no telecasts, just some 30 second short-clip on the news, see the difference?
It won't be surprising if anyone knows nothing about paralympics... it's like er...Not much coverage???

First Paralympic medal in history ...

Their perseverance, hardwork and efforts are to be praised
Their weakness..., the obstacles...Not only did they overcome their weakness, they went on to a higher level, challenge their weakness... The first small little steps they took that ultimately brought them this far ... It's a truly admirable sportsman's spirit. And they are so strong, really, so strong in the heart already...

And maybe the school should distribute straits times to us again...

The school is really infested with this bug that really is irritating...
And maybe it's a kind of 心理作用 , that it makes you feel itchy all over your body...
They multiply really really quickly, at a horrifying pace...
First it's the classrooms on the first few floors, and thanks to those wings of theirs, they advanced to the third four floors etc, and now they are camping outside the toilets, at every corner of the school (And i seriously meant every corner, well, if you bother to look carefully), they don't bite, but oh come on, imagine in a class of bugs...You'd just go distracted swatting flies/blowing them off your desk/ flipping your books and papers so they could just get out of your way...
Omg, maybe, School could close down for a day, then yea, spray the insecticide,just to rid them off, cause anyway, what can a can, or cans of insecticides do to NESTS of bugs anyway...

Sigh, now i start to feel very scared...Scared that history might repeat itself after all.

2008-09-07T03:15:00.000-07:00

Oh this is a photo of ... The cute one... Well..That's what she call herself LOLS

Well Anyway, holiday is over...
Which means, it's nightmare...A beginning
It's when workload will double,
Remedials will increase?
And CCAs stop...
And you start getting horrified at how many things you still yet to know.

But anyway...
Holiday homeworks made me even more depressed...
Alot of questions ... make me go ..."AH?" "Huh"
And of course I accepted the fact that hey, after all, what I have been taught is all gone...

Holidays,
I look forward to it, Because you know I can rest and all ...
Holidays,
It ain't a pleasant one this time.

2008-09-03T03:02:00.000-07:00

Feeling helpless, feeling worthless...
The outcome is disappointment.

I cant say that to myself anymore...

After the whole thing, I watched the others...
Admired them, and imagining, how is that they manage to pull through and to you know push themselves...
It's an admirable kind of spirit that I wished to have...
It's very funny how I starts to get so tensed up and before or after the whole thing, I am so relaxed...
I really am very bad at this.

2008-09-02T00:33:00.000-07:00

>..<
How to play badminton tomorrow...
Too tired to even open my eyes ...
Geez, must have been cursed...
But I will love Panadol :)

2008-08-30T19:41:00.000-07:00

Jesslyn LEE SHU HUI !
Yingfeng, me, CoCo
Afanthi, yingfeng, chi, coco, shah
Chi, me and Yingfeng
Zhuo Ning, Samantha, Yuting, Enci, Shanny at the back , Yasmine and Yingfeng
Shahirah !
29th August 08

During the teacher's Day Concert, it was so fabulous...
I had lots of fun, so much laughter,
I guess it was getting better, songs being sung, guessing games( Which I find very very amusing:D)
Right after the performance, I fled to Bukit View, LOL
So great that many of my friends turned up :D
Had fun there ;D

after that went to Hilton after meeting up with my friends...
Lol
Pictures speak a thousand words

2008-08-23T23:43:00.000-07:00

Hopefully , many ex-classmates would turn up on Friday...

Its been long since everyone seen one another...
When I see bvps, I always hope I was in there.
Oh , who don't want to replay those beautiful times you had in there...
The only thing I really really missed most is PE lessons
Well, like a week you have three times of PE Lesson, Isn't that thrilling?
Then plead the teacher to let you play Netball, captain's ball, Whatever ball-games you wanna play...

But I guess this year many ain't gonna make it...
Its either busy schedules or some will never bother with re-visiting their mother schools...
Gah...

Rain rain go away, come another day...

2008-08-22T18:14:00.001-07:00

DAYS Hibi wa itsumo mawaru koma no you
Mukashi ni egaita yume mo nogashisou ni naru
Hohoemu chikara wasurete shimatte
Namida saemo nagasezu ni kage wo daiteru
Kimi demo

SMILE AGAIN egao wo mou ichido
Kokoro no naka hane hiroge
Sora ni mukatte miyou
Dakara TRY AGAIN yo no naka ni makenaide ite yo
Afureru omoiwo shinjite kimi no koto mamoru kara

Doushite itsumo hikari kara nigete
Hito kage sagashiteta kure you to shiteiru no
Wakaranai no ni
Wakatteru furi de
Butsukaru koto wo osorete hitei shiteiru
Boku demo

SMILE AGAIN ookina koe dashite
Kokoro no futan okoroshite
Kumo ni notte miyou
Soshite TRY AGAIN mamotte aishiaou subete wo
Sukoshizutsu demo ii aseranai jikan wa mada aru kara

SMILE AGAIN egao wo mou ichido
Kokoro no naka hane hiroge
Sora ni mukatte miyou
Dakara TRY AGAIN yo no naka ni makenaide ite yo
Afureru omoiwo shinjite kimi no koto mamoru kara

Kimi no koto mamoru kara

2008-08-21T01:49:00.000-07:00

Kissing You MV by Boa, is very interesting
Colorful and unique i would say...
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=SXKuVfs2WIQ
If you want to look at it...

I knew she gave up on us ...
most of the time, she came in, she looked stressed, she tried to keep her unhappiness to herself, she told us how unhappy with the attitude of the class that's gonna have their O lvls' this year...
Sigh, ...

Teacher's day arriving...
Whether to go back or not, I don't know...
Seems like this year, everyone has a busy schedule...
Since Teacher's day is riound the corner.
Well, if there's this roll-of-honour for teachers in Commonwealth...or some " best teacher "award
I would nominate these teachers,* Not in any order *
1) Mdm Quek : VERY patient with her students, ask her and she would kindly and nicely repeat it for you, well, till you understand or when "you're crystal clear" with facts.
2) Mrs Yeo: A very funny class mentor. Caring and nice class mentor. She's like a mother of 45, care so much about one's well-being, (a big family huh? )=]
3)Ms Phoon: well, All i can say is that she is really dedicated and passionate about teaching...
4)Mrs Margaret Loh: Very experienced teacher, whom doesn't mind at all for being held up for us to clarify our doubts.

Rainy days... It's hard to keep yourself awake

2008-08-20T01:17:00.000-07:00

Today threeone took their class photo...
Somehow, I felt so high after the photo shots.
It's the kind of unexpected fun that you get...
Cause maybe it's through the squeezing to get into the picture do you feel the warmth of a class.
It's funny at times...It's cool to just smile at the camera with your class...
And this year is very different from last year's...
This year,you get formal shot, fun shots and five take a photo together and together they're gonna combine it into a montage or something???

Run ... Keep it running

2008-08-18T01:48:00.000-07:00

Singapore lost to China...
It goes to show Singapore making it far, we should be happy enough as we all know China team is too formidable,unbeatable.
But making it this far, getting Singapore's flag to be raised after 48 years, its hard,

And yesterday I was watching the whole match...
How to say, everytime the Team SG hit out, your heart like jump abit...How to say... you can feel excitement and nervousness.

2008-08-16T18:45:00.000-07:00

Phelps clinched gold by like 1/100TH seconds?
WAH!!!

2008-08-15T22:38:00.001-07:00

AND OH YAY FOR SINGAPORE'S TABLE TENNIS TEAM!!!
A MEDAL AT LAST!
CELEBRATION!

2008-08-15T22:30:00.001-07:00

When you gain something,you exchanged something you had for it...

2008-08-15T05:20:00.000-07:00

You know, it's hard to please everyone
Although "Nothing is impossible"
But I guess one thing you do might not please everyone yea.
Then must you give such remarks about it.-_-

No matter how much you want to change things, it still remains as what it is, Pretty annoying,.

Sighs.
I felt so lousy the whole day...Feeling very ... very... tired...

Mrs Yeo told us about resilience, how stress should be managed, what kind of mentality we should have...
And I'd remember this :
If no one loves you, then the more you should love yourself...

2008-08-14T02:52:00.001-07:00

Sometimes when you recalled what you have done, you'd probably find yourself pointing fingers and blaming the younger you for making such stupid mistakes...
Mistakes...
Big or Small...
Made changes, be it a big change or a small change to our lives...

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these few days, I am so desperate for time to sleep...
Time whereby I so-look-forward to: BEDTIME
And probably it's due to the seventh month, My dreams were all weird, and I waked up at VERY weird times, to just suddenly wake up from my dreams, weird. And those dreams, were eerie...It's great to have a so-call biological clock where you just wake up at certain time of a day, but not at those weird 3ams 4ams.

About to finish reading "If you could see me now" written by Cecilia Ahern
She is such a great author ... I love the way she describe the emotions of the character, the way she described the places and her usage of words drew a picture of roughly what it'd look like in your head and what's really cool about her books, is that it can make you fantasize and yea, get you into this dreamy state..
Exaggerating?maybe? But try reading it yourself...

2008-08-08T18:05:00.000-07:00

Yesterday's was China's biggest day.
Their dream of hosting the Olympics finally came true...
And for once, for instance, I really admired China...
For showing such great performances in of billions of eyes all around the world,
From the scroll, which I am still surprised at how did they even construct the thing...
So beautiful, And you'd feel proud for them, from the inventions of paper, the compass to the beautiful and unique chinese culture. After the performance, and if you have watched the opening ceremony, 200+ countries marched in,
And I gawked most of the time, Cause , I never heard of this country or that country before. And yea, you'd never be able to imagine how huge the world is...

The way they light up the Olympic torch, is UNEXPECTED, AND very style.

Ah, must watch the athletes !!!

2008-08-08T00:04:00.000-07:00

National day celebrations today.
me and Maisy were just crazy haha...
But yea, I had fun
After the celebrations...
Saw seniors, Pam, and Chilanan, So we chatted a little ;D

happy olympics day everyone ...
Remember watch tv !

David Archuleta's single- Crush...
it's wonderful...
Waiting for JoJo's album :D

2008-08-06T06:59:00.000-07:00

Sometimes you felt like a stranger to me...
You're someone i know, yes...
But .

on the way back...
It felt empty and so lonely...

2008-08-02T06:44:00.000-07:00

Spent the whole afternoon, or rather the day , watching videos...

Especially, the Britain's got talent, America's got talent videos are fabulous...
It just made you wow at kids these days,
Young and talented, and appealing to the audience...
Bright futures...
My favourites-Andrew Johnston and George Sampson

Amazed at Andrew's voice...
It's really high-pitched and some called it gay...And he did say that his schoolmates bully him because they don't appreciate such music...It's very angelic, like some voice from heaven...
George Sampson's just so great at dancing...
He's got lots of confidence and peserverance,...
You should check out his finals performance,

Schooling...
I no comments...
To forget the stress, you just have to laugh...
:D

2008-07-27T04:55:00.000-07:00

I think that's what really made humans invincible...
Dreams...
Dreams made us great...

I had one dream...For now...
Sigh, And in another few more months then I'd know whether if I can fulfill it...
I'd work toward it :D

everyday is a brand new chapter, a brand new day.
I don't want to excite myself at the thought of what's lined up for me,
But reminsce and recall what I have done for the day,
Treasure the times we had together, as friends, as classmates, all of us...
it's memories...that's so precious, so valuable, no one has the same as yours...

Gambatte

Tomorrow's chemistry common test, And yea, Let's see...

Be with you, ah so addicted to the song...
:)

2008-07-19T21:54:00.000-07:00

Be with you,BoA...
Soothing and beautiful piece of music

Who says dogs can't be the ones you made promises to...
I wanted to watch The 10 promises between me and My dog, Starring Mayuko Fukuda...
If anyone want to watch it together, Tag !
Dogs can't talk like all humans do, but they gives you the warmth just by looking into their eyes.
I would like to have a dog, A golden retriever :)

Believe that you can, And you will.

Even if you're bad, I'd always think you're fabulous, or thinking of thousand of reasons why you behaved that way...
Time stole your old self, and turned you into a new someone
Till the day you matured,
You'd understand, the importance, and you'd regret, all that you've done,
A self destruction...Destroying your own things with your own bare hands.
Taking things for granted...
Indeed, I always believe in one saying:
Once you lose it, you'd know how precious, what it meant to you.

Struggling, But what can I do?

2008-07-18T02:35:00.000-07:00

Schooling is really scary...
I wanted to have a week rest...

To have a day of laughter...
It sure makes your day :)

2008-07-16T06:15:00.000-07:00

Sometimes you think ...
You ask yourself...
Whether if you really , truly deserve this...
Somehow Maybe I do...
For all I care...
Wishing and hoping one day...
It'd wont affect me that much...

2008-07-05T18:34:00.000-07:00

Lives of those common people were treated as nothing, the kings/queens in the past don't even bother about them. A life or two sacrificed, to them ,it's like nothing???
Watching iljimae
Starring:
Lee Jun Ki ;D
Han Hyo Joo ;D
Lee young Ah ;D
Park Shi Hoo ;D

Korean-ized version of Robin HOOD...
It's nice you know :)

2008-06-21T06:46:00.000-07:00

Ah Sa's voiceover for the ugly duck in Chicken Little, I Think its EXTREMELY cute to listen to...
AH SA ROCKS :D

2008-06-20T06:14:00.000-07:00

These few days I was busy...Getting from one place to another...
It's tiring
At times, it's really ourself that gets in the way, our fear that gets into the way...Stopping you from doing certain things...

Life is filled with ups and downs, lined up with all kinds of obstacles to overcome...

Well...

I am just sick at the idea of holidays coming so fast to an end...

It just...ain't enough.

2008-06-16T06:41:00.000-07:00

COLDPLAY's VIOLET HILL :D

Well on Saturday, we had Barbeque at Kaixiang's house.
It was fun!
Coco and me met up at Jurong east interchange and we were off to NTUC(Jurong Point) and were both shocked at the only apperance of KX and ChonHei,and wondered where are the others?
So,yea, we shopped for the stuff to be used...Enci, Amelia, Yuhan, Celestine, Cedric came later...Yay:D
Then we grabbed on to anything we wanted to makan and placed it inside the trolley.
And well, we went to his house...
His house, is a great venue lol
We (The girls) played stack-up, laughed at the funny videos, And i really meant laughing like really loudly? LOL ><
We played soccer after Weiliang, Shah, Huiying, Zhiyong, weichen came...
LOL WE HAD FUN!
The girls be the goalies, the boys kick the ball
And after that we started our BBQ.Anyway, all this is really a success cause of KX and his parents...

Ah.holidays ending, how disastrous, i haven;t finish my homeworks!

2008-06-11T06:01:00.001-07:00

Precious moment...Indeed

Today...
I had a memorable day to always remember...
A big thank you to everyone, well, especially to Jacquelyn a.k.a Si Mei....
Though the scrapbook she did for me is really really QIANDA...But I am touched by the effort she put in...Thank you...

Thanks to these people:
1) JESSLYN LEE xD
2)Roujing
3)Limting
4)Atiqah
5)Jacquelyn
6)Weiling
7)Huiying
8)Shahirah
9)Trixie
10)Allyson
11) My family ;D

They made my day ;D

2008-06-08T00:47:00.000-07:00

The whole world is chaotic...
First Natural disasters and it's a human VS nature war.
Second the uprising costs of oils
Third, poverty...
It's scary, you see those emaciated and bony children on the news...
Somewhere, at the other part of the world, people gets richer and richer, while there got to be the extreme, where people are just not even well-fed...
Fourth, Global warming...

Yesterday I had a dream...
These days my dreams are way way way weird...
It all felt so real, and everytime I woke up I was so relieved cause afterall, It's not real...
I dreamt of me losing my sisters...And I witnessed how, and my mom sobbed real hard, and I, too shocked and got out of control...
And thank goodness, I snapped back to reality just in time, before I scream in my dream...
Dreams Dream Dreams...
Afterall it's a nightmare...

The previous night,
It's bone-chilling... I was walking along some dark alley, And I swear I will never ever attempt to, NOT on my own, I don't have the guts.
Along the alley were rows and rows of dilapidated houses with lights out, and it's all dark and spooky...The lights from lampposts shone eerily and ominously... As I walked and walked, I saw this dark figure.Beside him alot and alot of corpses, each with a knife sticking out from the stomachs, all at the same spot... Then it( I dont think it should be call him or her,Cause it's meant to be some monster!)saw me coming, I just stood rooted to the ground and stared at the corpses...And I think he knifed me, right in the stomach...And I guess I just died, in my dream.(I know it sounds like some drama, but hey, it's so scary that I can even recall and tell you in detail that that's what actually happened)

Tomorrow is Weekimwee...Goodluck to Team B ;)

2008-06-02T03:42:00.000-07:00

A child's hope...
Lol I remembered how atiqah and me will fight over, Me saying that Jeanette Aw's Best show is Holland V, And she'd say that it's A child's Hope 2

I really love the first series...
The first series,
There is this boy's story, Huang Bi ren's "child"... And it'd make me all weepy. The really sorry states of his parents and him. Social workers just rule yea?

Then second series, is acted by Jeanette Aw.She rocks ;D and she's gonna act in "Little Nonya" and yeah, it'd win her the top rank in the 7 Princess, and maybe be crowned the next "Ah jie".

Well singapore Dramas are great! Support Local dramas! Haha
And Since I am just really bored I'd just rank my top 5 SG dramas

1)HOLLAND Village Singapore's longest drama...Chen Li Ping, one of the actress I admired, really really good at acting.
2)A child's Hope Series The Super power of social workers
3)Rhythm of Life. Collaboration of all the possible Ah Jie Ah Ge gonna-bes. And the show is all twisty...Something new to me.
4)The Champion A show on swimming. Got TORO! x
5)Rainbow Connection This show is so cool... It really makes you feel like dancing even if you don't like dance in the first place... Gets you jumpy... And Jeanette rocks in the show ;D

2008-06-01T20:28:00.000-07:00

A day and another passed and gone, Holidays are going to end soon, And another scary start of a semester, you know teachers do describe the semester as critical and they gonna chiong the syllabus and yeap it's going to be hard for some gun-doo like me. Ha
I got so many many things I wanted to do , Yet, i keep procrastinating and Yeap, Everyday I "waste" my time...
Well, I do see the agony of not getting into a desired school, well from one person...
Indeed it must really be the cruelty of truth, for you to accept that you're not as good as others to enroll into the desired school...and that you knew that you worked real hard but just efforts don't really pay off...
Blogging is getting kinda boring.

A reply to all tags: ( This is done, also to prove to sim weiliang that her realization is wrong and that I DO reply tags.Haha)

2 Jun 08, 10:28

eNcI: y everywhere i go god u de.. TAGGED!
Hello! LOL i suppose the "u" is celestine HAHA

2 Jun 08, 10:23

celestin: hoy hoy~!! tagged^^
Hello! xD

1 Jun 08, 21:23

=D: just gonna love ren fang=D
=_=

27 May 08, 11:56

weiling: lol i realise rf like dun reply tags one o.o
See I replying! No need to realize, I got reply!

26 May 08, 15:22

ATRINA(:: MRS DIAMOND! We are damn fortunate so we must be happy and cherish all we have. I love you ;D
MRS RUBY, Yea, cherish what we have, Love ya too :D

26 May 08, 14:44

weiling: yea..the charity show i nearly cried..so sad la!
Yea, the charity is damn sad, especially the children part, the xiangyun. OMG she one of my idol she and her daughter, de poem damn sad, Though her daughter like kinda forget a few parts, she managed to deliver the poem beautifully.

24 May 08, 18:19

HUIYING!: yeah, sad that mdm ker's leaving...
Yea...Its sad, i Know SOMEONE will surely agree also!

24 May 08, 01:31

Atiqah: Was wondering hw come she was gone from our class for so long luh. And looked for you just to see her in ur class. Sad really. =(
Hmm, yea.

21 May 08, 21:35

Atiqah: whose your her? aha
Someone we both know, but not your her

21 May 08, 15:39

Jacquelyn ♡ (= .........:: Lim ting jealous seh ! rf let hold hand in front of lim ting !
Simei, please ah, one more time, you die.

18 May 08, 22:24

lmting;D: hello! ;D LOLS. tagged. aiyoh. jac and you scandl sehhh! ;D
Hello! ...PLEASE who want scandal with her!

18 May 08, 19:31

Jacquelyn ♡ (= .........:: YAY ! GOT MY NAME ON YOUR BLOG ! haha ! thank you anyway ! love you lotss as a very very very ♡♡ best friends
O_O

17 May 08, 20:18

weiling: HEY!!!! bt actually rite..shah use 1st den u use..so not really DIRECTLY hahas
Hello! lol use what ah?

17 May 08, 10:12

Atiqah: See! You must be appreciative that you got to walk normally for 3/4 of the day before you injured yourself! Ha-ha
LOL, i know you not happy la, you want me bleed so you can bring me to erhemm right haha

14 May 08, 18:01

Atiqah: Rf! We got all our results already! Yaay! =D No more fear for results har?
Haha.er of course!

14 May 08, 18:00

Atiqah: Haha. Atrina! That is rly lame! Who is this lame friend of yours?
Hello! ya, who's your lame friend.

14 May 08, 16:33

ATRINA(:: Haha! KX I also fail le. RF, my lame friend said your chem very good cause you're rf value =.=
Omg, who so lame, lol what rf value, wa lame.

13 May 08, 20:16

taller den u: wa lao ren fang i fail my geog leh omg wtf!!!!!
Hey, just jiayous for the next semester ya! and please, dont agitate me with my height -_-

2008-05-30T08:09:00.000-07:00

I think ...
To me, to live a life without any regrets is what I'd find at the end of the day, most satisfactory.
To live a life without harbouring any sadness, guilt or fear...

Everyone got to make the right decisions, Cause wishing wells and shooting stars or any praying to gods don't always work...Or rather, Never works...

At the end of the day, to greet life with a smile, with an open heart is all that matters all this while...

Wee Kim wee is coming...
And, I already knew the outcome, although we can't beat the strong ones the other schools offered, but that does not stop us from doing our very best...

As long as we are a team, we already won...

It's not winning that matters, but the confidence we hoped to gain from the competitions that drilled and prepared us to be mentally stable for the next and next next next competitions...

Jiayou everyone!

So far...
As long as I remembered...
It all seemed like yesterday.
For this , I have repeated it so many times...
"Time flies" "God, with a twinkling of an eye, we're this old" kind of stuff
And yea, I won't stop saying how time is really fast...
indeed, my holidays are about to start.

I had this phobia,
Everytime I went to that place, it keeps coming back to me.
I reminded myself over and over again, it'd not affect me,
But...Yea, outcome's still the same...
I wanted to overcome this, somehow, it's idiotic, but I can't help but to feel like a coward, a coward that can't even fight her own emotional fears, and yet, pretends to have gotten over with it.

2008-05-26T01:03:00.000-07:00

Friends forever?
Is there really forever???

2008-05-25T08:10:00.000-07:00

Earlier on, the charity show that is being showed on channel 8 is worth a watch...It really is moving...

No stunts, no exciting performances. Just some poetry and songs to move, to encourage, to give hope to all the sichuan people...
Ever since the Nagis earthquake, the sichuan tragedy followed...
The whole world is in a mess, and obviously Mama earth is indeed real angry with us...
Buildings that collapsed , the number of lives lost, the blood they all lost, the tears they all shed...
Everytime,there's news, there's the media coverage...
And once I saw this boy on tv whom both hands were amputated, and yea, reporter said that he's slightly blind or something? I forgot, but yea, he was lying on bed, and he was extremely devastated at the loss of his limbs, the loss of his ability to probably learn again... He was tearing in his heart...The sad look on his face. His sister, saddened, was interviewed by the reporter and was saying how her brother pleaded with the doctor not to get both of his limbs amputated, and that if he was to lose this both hands, then he could not learn again.

Then there's short clips the show also showed, whereby, ten thousands of schools affected by the earthquake..
And gosh, I was really shock...Even though I study geography, But I really didn't know that an earthquake can last for weeks, and it's a no wonder why there can be so many casualties. There's this girl whom died, holding a pen, telling the world, even if she was dead, she still, wants to continue to learn, to be able to go to school...

I think that's what Mrs Yeo also did mention of...
We can't do much...
For we're small compared to this big big world...
For people like us, all we can do...
Is to really reflect on how gods has been so kind to us, to assure that we are not struck by any of the catastrophes that swept away hundreds thousands of lives with just in a day or two.

Hopefully, those whom died go in peace...
The survivors can be standing strong again after many help given from all parts of the world

2008-05-23T05:42:00.000-07:00

Everyone clapped...Clapped for her nobility...Clapped for her passion..
Shocked, she came into the class...
Mrs Yeo mentioned about her doings to our class.
As a level manager, as a CH teacher...
Yingfeng handed her the card from all of us...With all our wishes and dedications to her
Well...First mdm ker cried, then a few girls followed...I started to tear also....
And I wonder, is it because I am saddened by the thought of not finding her around anymore once school reopens or is it over the thought of how much I gonna miss her?
Or both???
Mdm ker, thanks ...For teaching us, for scolding us...
We will all miss you...

2008-05-21T02:50:00.000-07:00

When you believe...
It will happen...
Its your belief that gets your determination running...

There's time...

2008-05-20T05:18:00.000-07:00

My 100th post...
I dedicate this to her...

Behind her face...
I see nothing, but happiness all written over her face...
Her smile is sometimes enigmatic...mysterious...
Maybe behind it, there might be a tiny winy of sorrow and the bitter of a life...
At times, without her, there's not much laughter...
She goes around making people smile...
She is just too great...

Thank you...

2008-05-16T06:36:00.000-07:00

Its been long since I last blogged...
Well due to the fact that I am really hooked to Dramas and busy watching them and of course just really lazy...

Training was disastrous...
Yea...But i thank them...
Limting in particular, she rocks...
Huda, lol I know what she wants...She wants herself to faint
Jacquelyn for being indeed, crappy...but yea, cracked everyone up...
That weiliang, I tell you, She must mention OXXXXX then she happy O_O
And Yea, Trix for her advice Lol

Myanmar, now China...
Mother earth really hates all earthlings...
Its just tragical...
The news made me feel guilty that I'm safe and sound...
There's this little boy whose two hands were amputated and slightly blinded I think...
Future...Is there going to be a bright one for him???

Though virtual, I appreciated it alot

Look up! At the clouds when you feel bored... How's the sky feeling, the clouds will show...

Yea.she's leaving...
Indeed...Incredibly wonderful...All the best...

Shall end here
Nights

2008-05-08T05:47:00.000-07:00

Examinations are over.
And finally...
Though the fear for difficult questions are gone
But the fear for lousy marks is here.
Physics, is expected that I fail la...Cause I seriously never study and kind of sacrificed it for geography, which is quite dumb -.- Trying to hug the leg of a god by memorizing last minute

Amaths I was shocked...And yay, my first amaths pass.
The past two Amaths common test I failed so yea... I am happy that I passed this time round

You know, I felt so happy...Happy that I feel not so empty.It felt cool...To not have to rush homework...And you know...getting to do things I really craved.

Tomorrow is Crosscountry,
Goodluck everyone!

2008-04-18T05:14:00.000-07:00

This week is alright la...
At least I am able to find some entertainment in the class that can make lessons not so boring, not boring to a large extent, and of course there's lessons I always fell asleep in la...

Biology...
Aiya, what can i say??? You know you just can't take notes, she teach lessons that are not trustworthy enough to write down your own notes. Like "Pancreas secreted glycogen" 0_0

Chemistry, I had a real bad feeling for it, I think I am the lowest, I seriosuly, lost like say, 6 marks? And I did my paper without my soul, my soul wandered off somewhere, distracted...Very..
lol whatever.

2008-04-11T06:16:00.000-07:00

Today is just a disgusting day...
Games day,
I SEE no games, I play no games, and all thanks to the weather...
Oh my, it's really a big shift in climates... Seriously, last year April, there's not much rain...Right now, rain??? And everything, the cross country and now the games day got to be postponed. What a day!
We sat there from 7+++ till 12+++ doing pratically,nothing.
But lol, we did try to get all of us "high" playing, hitting palms, reddening classmates' thighs. All those childish things... It feels great to be childish at times...
Well...It makes you feel great...

3one won the cheer, its really unexpected.
But Oh well, I am so happy that, eventually, from a cheering group of only ten, to a group of 45...
It's really remarkable, to get the whole class to do the cheer together... winning this whole thing, thanks to those we put in effort in making this cheer and of course to everyone who participated in a way or another...And yay! We won, as a team...

Netball...
Sigh, suddenly a wave of the past just washed over me and then I always remind myself of
Times whereby I don't mind staying up late just to grab hold of the ball, sweat under the scorching sun, drenched by the rain... Cause it really is shuang...
Suddenly, I think of primary school days. And I really wanted a time machine, to undo and to correct all my wrongdoings. Sigh. If only...Secondary school life, I am kind of tired of it...
Everyday, leading a life whereby you know, you got home, and not play computer games. Sigh
Sian
Out of here.

2008-04-04T05:30:00.001-07:00

The week's been short.
A week's already just passed like that...
Today...
Me and Atiqah were so blessed to be stained with those cute birdies' shit...Atiqah, on her hair lol. And me, on my shirt.
Amazing huh, birds these days have wonderful bowels...
Test tubes I collected today, had mould growing on them, all six, what luck...
Biology experiment is kind of boring, Well, the experiment just only require adding of enzymes.
Boring stuff and all we do is wait while waiting for the enzyme to act on starch

A week just passed.
And soon, the exams pressure. Most of the days when we have on paper, we most definetely have another test of another subject. And it's going to last like two three weeks? And I am so sure that that period of time is going to seems like years, obviously because we dread exam periods so much

Sigh...So sian...
I really want a big fluffy white cloud and I'd just get on it and float away, to places far far away, and always fly back to earth whenever I felt heavy and wanted to feel light again, it's like traveling from country to country. Cultural exchange trips, hopefully I can go for one when I am in JC, if ever I can get to one...

It's just so ... *hair-plucking* ...

Just bored

2008-03-30T00:56:00.000-07:00

Lala...Feeling really bored...
Afterall, it's impossible for me to glue my eyes on texts...My butt is bound to get up and out of the room for sure...For some foodhunt, some toilet visits...Toiletbowls these days are too tempting...-_-and more comfortable to sit on chairs...

Tomorrow physics, i can only depend on lucky charms, i have no comments, failing really terribly... for the supposedly-to-be common test, Lol 19/49 ZOINKS@!

Mao! xD So Cool!!!

2008-03-29T02:22:00.000-07:00

If you wander off too far, my love will get you home.
If you follow the wrong star, my love will get you home.
If you ever find yourself, lost and all alone,
get back on your feet and think of me, my love will get you home.
Boy, my love will get you home.

If the bright lights blinds your eyes, my love will get you home.
If your troubles break your stride, my love will get you home.
If you ever find yourself, lost and all alone,
get back on your feet and think of me, my love will get you home.
Boy, my love will get you home.

If you ever feel ashame, my love will get you home.
If its only you to blame, my love will get you home.
If you ever find yourself, lost and all alone,
get back on your feet and think of me, my love will get you home.
Boy, my love will get you home.

You know these lyrics made you believe that someone..someone out there will help you, "Get you home" when you're lost...Give you love whenever you needs it...It's a heartwarming song.
This is the song Mrs Yeo shared with us... I can sense her love towards each and every one of us...She reached out...She tried...No matter how hard she try, she still don't give up, Won't give up to get our mouths talking, never stop to get to know us...And everytime this song plays, it just reminds me of her, she's like our mother, a mother in school...When we got lost...And when we really did, for a time, at East Coast after CIP, She got worried, really worried... And after I got home, I smsed her that Yea, I reached home safely and apologized to her, she told me not to do that again cause " I got a weak heart" . Sigh...Maybe it's great to have such a nice CM
At least... She can be added to Commonwealth's list.

And btw...Just ignore the picture at the music player...-_-

2008-03-29T00:03:00.000-07:00

I wanted to build a snowman...
Very much
If singapore pours down snow
If.

2008-03-28T05:49:00.000-07:00

What if you are offered with what may seems to be a once-in-a-lifetime chance
But ...yea...maybe...just ain't the right time...

Trainings...
You know at times...It just feel so weird and salvation seems to be a strange and completely new place to be...At times...And the place's got dead air...I felt so dead at certain times.
Life is just so dull...
Study.Sleep.Shit.Eat.
Maybe, from a different view, I knew alot more than I used to.
Another different view, I now got to cram all these into the brain.

My hero,Where's she? Ha,Mrs Liow's Assignment.

I felt so...unactive...As in...I don't even have the energy to fool around, I am just tired...

CDP, the 2005 top indian scholar for O'lvls came here to speak to us, regarding time management and stuff. I was greatly impressed by the way she spoke, an intelligent and articulate young lady, Whatever she said i think it do helps for most.
And there's a song Mrs Yeo shared...Make some teared...
But, it's inevitable...
Lyrics I can't remember much...
When you're lost, my love will guide you home...
And the song...it just made me...

You know...
I really...want to fall into a deep sleep...

2008-03-26T02:54:00.000-07:00

Biology lesson is such a joke today...You know mdm Soh were teaching enzymes...Then the topic can changed to Breastfeeding LOLS
Enzymes? And Breastfeeding?
Wonder how they're related you know

Jurong island is so cool!
Though security is so tight...Everyone got to get down the bus to pass through this "gate"
The infrastructure is cool...
Chemistry gallery is nice also haha...
That's all!
I was wondering, if they could paint those metal tubings into pink and blue and white and other wonderful color then it'd be very beautiful! The whole island...

Suddenly I felt so sick and disgusted...Can't wait to just ...

2008-03-22T06:08:00.000-07:00

Mao Asada is like so cool and elegant...Gracious I would also say
=D

2008-03-22T03:09:00.000-07:00

The blogskin is kind of pinkish,yea it's nice,The cakes are really cute

Yucks.
At times, you don't have to do this...I'd do that...I'd do that...

It just rained...Heavily...
And it still drizzle...
It's scary... Seems like climate change are very serious
These rainy monsoon rains you can only get to experience when it's december or november...
And now, March...It's just weird....
Mother Earth is probably not happy with what we did to her, abusing, failing to take care, jamming her lungs with toxic gases, clogging her once healthy lungs. And maybe angry that we dig out her insides for more electricity.

I am really really bored...

This world is vast....But singapore is small .Yet, we never knew whom we might bump into for the next moment,or for now, and then that some person's presence made you feel extremely uncomfortable and er, make your heart thump like mad...And we can't control it. It's fate...and lol, atiqah...You fated with her means fated =] Dont worry la.

And hey, if you're bored and stuff... Go watch xiaxue's guide to life...lol she's hilarious

Random at the Extreme

2008-03-20T21:44:00.000-07:00

I finished it on wednesday, Satisfying ending...
And Till now Assef's just an idiot. Molested Hassan and Sohrab. Geez!

And this bukit batok area is infested with rats.
Just one morning, a walk to the interchange, a rat hopped out
And it's huge.
Just the next morning, IT DASHED ACROSS towards the bin I walked to...
You have no idea how paranoid I am when walking past drains and that I make sure I walk past those places in a hasty way. Gosh, encounters with rats are definitely not pleasant to remember.
Only thing I really really really hate is rats...
Small fur cylinder-like kind of creature roaming about in the dark for food.It's just...disgusting...They're animals, they have lives, but they just...freak people out.
And maybe it is just ...getting too ideal for rats to settle and set up communities. zzz ...It's getting dirtier and dirtier

EMaths lesson, seriously, i got real confused...
History lessons, Yay, I enjoyed it, not that I can memorize those things or remember them, but it's just interesting, Stalin regime...And to think he even tricked Trotsky ...And all those shameful things he did that he ought to be ashamed of, but mdm ker also said that he should also be given some credits for the boosting economy of the country during that era...

I am going more random and random...

I gave up...Zzz.

I dont know why,it's hard to get my eyes buried in books, it just seems so...difficult...

2008-03-15T05:47:00.000-07:00

Ah... Xiao Cui is really every girl's dream guy xD
So sweet of him...Seriously, never seen a guy in korean dramas, love a girl so so much...

Hassan And Amir are brothers...
Ah!!!

2008-03-14T01:49:00.000-07:00

Maybe...I dont understand her well at all.
On the surface, It seems that there's nothing wrong...It seems calm
But I felt uneasy.
It's too decieving...
Bad feeling something's gonna happen
It sucks...
It's not like before...
Those days.

Ah...Life goes on...

2008-03-13T21:24:00.001-07:00

Took this on the way to ngee ann primary...
I love the clouds and the birth of dawn

It'd be over soon.Can't wait for it to be over though.

I am bored...
Just too bored...
But I still loved holidays. Can laze on the beds with no alarms to irritate you.
And got books to entertain :]

Hassan, sigh, why did Amir just not tell Baba the truth...

2008-03-13T02:48:00.000-07:00

I find this very disturbing...
Amir doing this for his own gain...
And instead of apologizing...He did this to his friend...
Hassan's just too incredible.
He's just too strong, (mentally)...And I admired him, he fulfilling his promises
He not even whimpering when he got raped.
It aint really easy to get a friend that's that understanding...That sacrificing.Not saying that there's none.
It's a book character I refering to okay.

Holidays...
If that's how I am going to spend my holidays...
Then... I'd be bored to death...But I guess It's going to be like that during holidays... Till.Till next year...That kind of funny feeling.Bored+an Undescribable feelingAnd plus the chilly weather, with sunless skies...so dark so cold and without the sun, makes you, feel so sleepy. I feel like going out...But no one...to play with/Everyone's buzy i Guess...

When you start it's indeed hard to stop...
And why does time always not wait for us, Impatient huh?

2008-03-09T09:57:00.000-07:00

A reply to tags Sorry.

Daddy to <3: Hello. Wow,that's real kind
Atrina: Yo horny! ! !
Atiqah: Sia la Okay, I wont use violence=X And i am NOT horny
Weiliang: The desperate is I forgot who le
Joeyk: lol you singing that songs reminded me of kenneth LOL during geog lesson
HUIYING: I am not horny.YO btw.
Weiliang: YOYO
Limting: Ni hao!
Xinying: Lol okay Id link you
Limting: Thanks ah. your herbal tea lol
weiling:haha?
Atiqah: Dont remind me, it's scary, we're on our own now...relinked =]
Limting: ting-er ni hao =]
Weiling: Lol yea...my results really sucks...Let's work hard together.
Limting: =]
Atiqah: I hate results. its not EOY. I dont dare ask money for any As. But i wont dare if i got a F. ok i understand.
rj: YOYOYOYO! old duck! the YOUNG chicken is here. You too, JIAYOU ! must do the birds proud! take care too!!!
Joeyk: ??? lol paiseh i dont understand lol

Maybe it's time to yea, get up and out of comfort zone, but i just cant get my eyes off the computer T_T
Lao ya...
Goodluck...Must pia very hard...Chickens got confidence that you'd fly with good results...Though you very old, but you can fly one... =]
And of course to other seniors...jiayous...for o'lvls

2008-03-08T19:51:00.000-08:00

They say this about me...But whatever...at times, I'd try to struggle and get through this...I am trying...For all times, they never noticed my hardwork...My results I know it suck with a F9 and a fail for A maths. B, C,Ds .But they never knew of the nights I have toiled.It seems like nothing...All they pointed out is me speaking on the phones and using the computer, which I have really really cut down on...
Sigh...
I admit i am stupid

Last night...
It's just so terrible, I felt terrible.
Making Mrs yeo worry for us...
Cause we wander off to east coast to have our dinner after the CIP which we clocked for 10 hours
And I apologized really...Making her worry...Sigh...

training...
Sigh...

I readed that...and at times i felt like breaking down again...sigh...But ...sigh...

2008-03-07T06:06:00.000-08:00

Today they stepped down...
And at times, If i were to recall, recollect and remember all those times we all spent together as a team...It just twitch your heart ...Really, three years are just gone like that...
And we were to lead the team right now. It's just so...
Sudden...
And I 'd never forget each and everyone of them , especially the qianda girl... Sigh...
But ...seniors,
Thank you so much...
Badminton has been so much fun with all of you around,
And that you guys stepped down...
So ...Goodluck in your O'levels, all the best.
We'd try our best also...

2008-03-02T01:31:00.000-08:00

I am seriously and desperately wanting holidays to arrive as soon as possible..
I felt so...Dumb...Failing tests and trying to deal with stress and homeworks...
Stressed. because I dont get anything ...
Homeworks, or homejoy, that's what mrs abudullah called, aint any joy at all..But oh well, at least, uncommon, so sounds nice.LOL

Yea. And so many things happened I dont want to care ...
Maybe...in the first place I shouldn't bother...But maybe it's just too intolerable.
But life still has to go on according to plan...

And sometimes, have you not remembering yourself scolding me also?
Duh. bet you did...

Sigh...
Extremely bored studying ...Doing homeworks...
Can't imagine how life for sec 4 is...

Holidays...
Holidays...

2008-02-23T00:39:00.000-08:00

Why they turned to be so desperate???

-sometimes that mountain that you'd be climbing is just a grain of sand-

2008-02-15T05:00:00.000-08:00

if only english is this engaging all the time,
Whereby it's more of interaction between teachers and students rather work all the time, But I know why there is a need to do work
Actually Mrs liow ain't that bad...At least she taught me something and I can absorb something...
lol the environmental centre, is it call the environmental centre, ain't that sure. And then i was getting really excited about the topics we talked about.Lol...=P

The lesson I enjoyed most today, is CDP lesson, I really enjoyed all those funny stuff Mrs Yeo talked to us about. It really cracked me up and made my day...

My feelings were elevated...then all of a sudden they just turn icy cold...It's just so upsetting...Disappointing...
It spoilt everything...Sigh...I know le...next time I'd just slow down my pace. Cause you don't even bother...

2008-02-14T06:47:00.000-08:00

Changes...
Be it big or small.
It just occurs all the time...Everytime...

People changed...

Sigh

Sick of it
But i am just so immune to it...
Sometimes I just felt so left out...

The hearts have no where to go...Homeless...

2008-01-31T04:51:00.000-08:00

Well...
West zone is over for us...
Though we can't get to the next round...But

Today just sucks ...
I just hate today...
I don't know...Most of the time, I just sat and day-dream...And I really love to be alone, which is unusual...But it just got me, that feeling... and just think and think. I thought...

Indeed, an expression don't just show all that's in you...You smile, but there's many things going behind a smile...when you cry, there's lots more behind the watery tears.When frowning, those facial lines don't just express how annoyed you are. These expressions, just some rough idea, just a mask over your face...just some things to conceal your real feelings.

All awhile, I kept thinking about her...Somehow, All disliked her.But whatever...

I got scolded by him also... Maybe all awhile I've been childish. But childish made me happy...If not...what other joys can I find in this school. It's just so different from primary schools... You run, play, shout, no one even turn to look at you. Now, you shout, play, be rowdy... And you'd just get caught and they'd go "Stop being childish" Then there's going to be misunderstandings, then people's going to hate you...

And oh, speaking of hatred.I was really disturbed...Just so weird... there's a great story-teller, not stories or fairy tales that you get to see on shelves, but some random idiotic twists of facts and it's just how stupid someone'd go around telling "stories"

I felt so sinful...I think I've really did alot of wrongs...
First...maybe getting out of the bus,when they pulled me. actually I just... wanted to stay, then it's like i saw the bus-driver's expressionless face, and these kind of faces are just scary, and he just stopped, waiting for me to response, for me to press the bell.So just got off...I am sorry...

Secondly... Maybe mr lim is right... All awhile I am that childish, rowdy...Well...I agree with him. Well that's me...And I won't change, even if I think he's right. And that I am very wrong..

Thirdly and lastly, just feeling like I've done something wrong... Just something that can't be shook off my mind...And i think I did something really wrong... Pardon me for my idiocy...

Haha...

Yesterday was fun.

Shall stop here...

Great that I did blog, at least I can breathe without those homeworks... I'd get used to it...A matter of time.

2008-01-29T05:58:00.001-08:00

I keep thinking and thinking...Recalling and recalling...

Sigh...Just can't get it out of my mind...

Just why...

2008-01-26T17:54:00.000-08:00

THESE ARE REALLY FUNNY.
Second one more funnny

2008-01-26T05:08:00.000-08:00

Today...Went to Tampiness to watch Wenqi's sister's performance.
Well...I have to say that alot of effort is being put up for the musical.
The little prince is a very familiar story to all of us, and so it's kind of a re-cap for all of us...
I love the songs they came up with
Really soothing and pleasant to listen to...very beautiful voices...]
I never really regret going there actually...
It's funny and an enjoyable one...
Can tell , from the props made, that the Singapore soka association(did i spell the soka correctly) came up with are very professional

Homework...just so much
Weekends are just simply too short, they run out so fast...

2008-01-25T06:56:00.000-08:00

It's been real buzy week
And yes finally weekends
I love weekends and by the way, who doesn't?

During this week, the tournament starts...
I felt very weak...
Simple shots I can't retrieve, I dont know why, I stood like as if there's roots growing out of my legs,planting me into the grounds, I can't help but divert attention away from the shuttlecock, then worry about whether if we're going to make it or not, that's not it, and the faces of our opponents, totally distract me, and I fear ... Every moment that we're going to get smashed, i don't have the belief in myself anymore...Somehow, it seemed all so difficult...I just hoped....Just prayed... I had a game that I really won't sit down and then regret, and then think, " hey, why didn't i move" ...
Every loss, it... I know, disappoints a lot of people...Firstly, the captains... of the previous batches and Shahirah and jerelyn and of course our own batchmates...It made us seem useless... really useless on the courts...It's like really hitting air...And then feeding the opponets shutters to let them smash hard at us, Though we might not really capable of winning, but oh wells, let's not lose hope... Jiayous all...

The next two matches are going to be tough
"If we can't then we must"

Then ...
I got really disturbed...
Really disturbed.Really fruastrated.
For the fact that, there's this... whom keep comlpaining...
Fine... somehow, like, for once, the whole world owe you something
Don't deceive yourself...For goodness sake... Stop being so childish and keep your words to yourself.

2008-01-19T21:38:00.000-08:00

First of all, I would like to tell this very thing this someone:

Don't show off...Show what off...You think you what...
I getting goosebumps ...
Get a life ...
What an idiot.

2008-01-18T18:58:00.000-08:00

Let me describe in detail about the camp...
Well, it's going to be something I recalled...

First day of camp,
I reached school with two big heavy bags...
And I saw alot of people with the Dark green-coloured t-shirts "Live! operation". I kept turning to look at them Lol.
Then everyone assembled in the hall to have this short introduction of our Platoon mentors to us. The way Captain Gopal introduced all the enceks and the Platoon mentors were scary, All suddenly ran to the front of stage in the se-di-yah position, and were in real straight rows, and they looked so serious, and moved in a real orderly manner, be it females or males, all stood straight, and then suddenly, they did push-ups, and they go " one encek, two-encek, three-encek " and so on. We then departed for the campsite.

The bus trip is kind of squeezy ...Lol, I sat with maisy, and we were laming around
LOL

We reached the campsite, and when we reached, everyone were like " Are you sure this is the campsite???"
We went to put our barang barang and then we were in our groups, undergoing the basic military training. To me, it might be boring at first, but then , with the group, together we started to be real enthusiastic, and then sees everything as interesting. I love my platoon ! ^_^ And of course I love my Platoon mentor, Ziting ^_^
At least through those activities, I can feel some life in my platoon or rather some life beginning to spark off in my class...And I appreciate everything Platoon Mentor Ziting did...

After the BMTraining, we did have lunch... And then off we go to Labrador to complete our high elements...
I did the ladder rope course... Initially, I wasn't really afraid. That's my first time on the ladder... I was abit afraid and I felt very shaky up there...And I was looking down, then there's this guy whom I don't know who, is shouting "Don't look down la!" lol then i realized, yes, indeed I keep on looking down and of course I keep shaking...Mentally unstable...lol

After that we have our rock-climbing...
Since primary five, the only thing I've looked forward towards to for every camp is this activity...
Yea like what PM Ziting said... " Life is like the rock wall, with every small piece of rocks. And in life, it's this small rock that leads us nearer to our goals." Roughly like that... She's very nice... and those quotes she said, I admired her and respected her even more, for i never really came across people whom really knows the real definition of life...And it so happen, that really, someone can really define the word "life". Though I might not really be good at rock-climbing, But I still like it. Somehow... Being hung up so high, challenging myself, pushing myself, feel the breeze. Though it may be just a few minutes up there, but it just feels great.

After that we made our way back, and then we have our dinner then after that we have "Operation Torchlight"
And I remembered Encek Ridzwan said about " This operation torchlight does not require any torchlight... And the reason why it is called "Operation Torchlight" is because the torchlight is within yourself..." And true enough, we use our eyes to guide us around in the dark. I loved the activity alot, especially when it comes to getting the "spaghetti" and then hit the ankles, so fun. And the most unforgettable one is the part whereby i was "dead" and then kena dragged on the hard mud, and ... It's so ...squeezy, that i have no choice but to be dead, no space at all...

After all that, I think it's debrief and then bathe time...Finally after a long day, we get to bathe, but I just don't like the idea bathing in such a small cubicle, and it's really lengthening the time we take to shower. and it's abit dark at the back ...Then it's then lights out!. God, there's one thing that fruasrated me alot... I got irritated also, others also... Zzz. can't sleep well, I was really pespiring really badly that day, inside my sleeping bag...Andlol yuting just slept beside me, sleeping very soundly...and I kept on turning here and there, then at 3+++ i was awaken by yuting, I thought it's 6.30 already, but then saw alot of others still in their dreams,then me and yuting just dozed off again.Lol

Early morning, everyone queued up to take turns to change and get teeth to be brushed before falling in, then it's our victory march ? And we took turns to carry food rations, the boys took turns to carry the water barrels? Or is it water containers? It's tiring, then after which, we had our march...It's a real long,sweaty and hot day...Then finally, we got to bathe, and there's this shortage of water.

After that we discussed about the CO evening, Lol, it's when the fun part comes in...
You know we got into our "families" then we started calling each other "sister, brother,mom, dad". Kajiao people then rehearsing and stuff. lol ^_^ Family LOL
CO evening, I was really siao, yea, and many times Elaine keep turning back because I was laughing really in a crazy way, lol...paiseh... But at times, it's really funny...and I and yuting were real high,lol, we were crazily singing the songs they played.haha.
then we had de-brief, PM ziting got us to share our thoughts, and then she added some words of hers into our thoughts and feelings...

then yea, lights out. i slept like a dead log after chatting with atiqah at night, lol... I was sleeping very soundly till yuting woke me up. third day, i dont' feel like going home...
we had the graduation ceremony and stuff...
Then we bali kampong

I had lots of fun...
I missed PM already...She rocks...

2008-01-18T03:58:00.000-08:00

Ah i want to go back to camp...

"How tall you want your ceiling to be, you decide."
"If you can't reach the sky, try to reach for the stars"
"The little actions are what life is all about"
Three of the many things Plotoon Mentor Ziting said
She's been a great PM. Well A very encouraging one, and you know always, joking around to make us smile...

Live! Operation camp is a very dirty camp but it's been an enjoyable one for me,I love camping...And at the thought that i won't get to camp next year, I felt abit... ah i don't know how to say . This camp taught me alot, or I should say PM ziting taught us lots...She told us what life is... Taught us how we should overcome fears and stuff like that.

In this camp I've learnt alot about my classmates and get to know alot of friends...
Lol, and even got a Mom,sister and brother.
The whole thing sounds lame... But I guess it still really is something I like about the camp...Lol being childish and all you know...
Camps are fun when you're enthusiastic about it..Cheer if there's a need to, just scream your lungs out... Real loud, and it's a time whereby you can scream and no one will call you insane.
This camp taught me what hardship is made of, what life in the national service is like... Doing drills, and you'd get real dirty...And all those team-building games are really fantastic, fun. The camp would be a nice and well-organized one if the toilets have not been so shitty...You know all awhile, 12 cubicles in a container ( you know those container-trucks whereby you have huge amts of cargos being transported) And it's SO SQUEEZY! And all the time we have to depend on our friends to help us hold the shower curtains before you get seen la... Oh and that's not it, it's VERY dirty...
I've had lots of fun...
And I really want to have a camp again
Haha...
Oh well
I've learnt so much...
Live! operation rocks :]
And thanks yuting...She's been great!

2008-01-11T04:46:00.000-08:00

This week is a real long and busy week for me...
As in for most of us...
Homeworks...A Maths E maths i might collaspe one day, "completing" those homework and then not really understanding the concept.
Ah, sec 3 can kill my braincells...

Tournament is coming...
Jiayou to all
I just hoped that me and atiqah dont really get mentally broken down and then just give our very best...

Somehow I am tired...
Tired of everything...
And ...I symphatize...
Those whom tolerated her for so long...
What is just so wrong with her...
Must she be such someone that showed disgusting attitude...

I miss it...
Missed it alot
It'd come back right?

2008-01-04T04:24:00.000-08:00

Yesterday school is alright,
Whatever Mrs Yeo said made alot of sense...And her story of her studious friend,That has high IQ but low EQ.
And after hearing that story of hers, I just realized the act of socializing is very important...
Her friend is very clever, a genius, but she kind of wasted her lifetime getting jobs that doesn't suit her,and that she is capable of better jobs... She being a teacher at first , and then not really able to socialize that well.Then to a nurse that takes care of old folks, then to a tuition teacher...

Being studious just means no life...And yea... It's like, maybe it's gods way of doing things, like getting you scored well in exams, getting a scholarship, but taking away something from you, and in that case, she lost the ability to socialize...Being very anti-social...

3 one is at least a bit lively today, Well, everytime still needs time to get used to the new environment...

To you all it seems like that, but that's not the case....

Anyway... i had this new year resolution, But to even think of me owning one, it just seems damn impossible, right now to me... for the way things are going, the way things are and stuff, it just all seems so ...unrealistic

Everyday, having to do mathematics I can die.
just two days of Maths lesson and then we got this homework .
And i spent one whole day, redo-ing just one question, i Just can't seem to get it...
Needs lots of brain cells.
And it's tiring

Chinese lesson,
Well it just feels good to see old friends again, as in... those 2/1 classmates of ours
And yea, cause everyone knows one another, that's why the lesson is more lively...

God, i haven't adapt to waking up so early and then getting home so late...and the long long long time tables, and the long hours I have to torture my hungry stomach, Weirdly,listening to teachers talk make my stomach grumble, but when the bell rings for recess, i not really that hungry, just mouth itchy

To you, I am nothing
Like yea, whatever...
Everytime I just feel like I am walking under some dark-casted shadows, do you know how sucky that it is?
Don't give a damn don't give la...
I dont need your damn.
Hate then hate like I care...
Whatever. I'd tolerate.

2008-01-02T01:55:00.000-08:00

First day of school...
And I tell you I hate schooling and my brother was excited.
And all of a sudden, I feel so mentally-weak and anti-social, Lol cause I just hate school
Anyway, No point to really love it,Who love stress so much
And everyone hates the morning "Bell",signalling you to get out of bed, and a brand new day...
Lol It might be slightly weird looking at our boys' classmates in long pants,

3one is a very quiet class,well due to the fact that we don't really know one another...
And hopefully after the camp, the class spirit is there and yea...This year's camp is at Lim Chu Kang, Lol weird place...
Lim Chu Kang, only one word that comes to my mind .
Cemetery, Like what most people might have thought of also...
Mrs Yeo, Our form teacher is interesting and fun. she is cute actually. haha. Jokes with us all around and yeah, telling us about chemistry here and there... And telling us how stressful life is going to be for triple-sciencer.
Frankly speaking, what mrs loh and she said, is frightening
With words like "Closely-monitoring your results", "Pumping us with homework"(Especially Maths)
And the most scary thing, is ...the timetable...The time we get released almost each day is 3 +++ and with remedials,makes it 5+++?
Wah...
I want bang wall...
Just hope I can survive through...

And I really hope to have that strength...
The strength to ...

Well that's for now...
Bye

2007-12-29T17:22:00.000-08:00

First, Movies. Hehe
Oh my god! Isabella Leong is so cute in that movie!!! =]
And
And seriously I am hooked to Hongkong films...
And is a tear-jerking movie...
I thought Charlene is going to appear more, But erm,she died in a car accident, And it's real sad...
And After watching the whole thing, You'd just sit there and then think "Is there ever going to be such coincidences?"

Sometimes, I wonder, Maybe after her,There ain't any...
When I recalled those events, I can't help but feel...
That feeling is way unexplainable through words
It's not sad, not angry, not disgusted, not happy, but some weird feeling

I knew limting and rj ...
That kind of QIANDA people ah...And limting, ah, go wrap and wrap lol...And her choice of wrapping paper were funny
lol

2007-12-26T08:10:00.000-08:00

Watched this Hongkong Film by Twins,Daniel Wu,Anthony wong and lot more
It's entitled "House of Fury"
It's a touching movie...Lol I Kinda got hooked to hk films.Die...
Twins & Isabella Rock...Anthony Wong, Though he's old, But erm, I really love his acting...As in he acted in a lot of hong kong films and of course is a recognized hk actor...And you know twins, they weren't of any relation and at the very beginning they just dont really get along well, but erm, through so many years of working together, they kind of like build this strong friendship between one another and then mentioned that they would always be a duo.Wow...Lol dont you just envy how unrelated strangers can be a best friend for life...Lol

Chrstimas...
It's the worst
It's boring
And it's so boring to the state that I do real silly stuff Lol
Walking around the house with santa hat?
Ah...Well...There's a lot of other reasons why it's the worst...

Maybe it's destiny and life...So yea,live it!

The year's closing in...
With well an aching heart at the thought of holidays gonna be over.
And school's restarting
Maybe, If I am a secondary one, i might look forward towards the day I get to a new environment and then make new friends and stuff.But erm, it's gonna be a third year in cwss ...And Life's gonna be hard for a third-year, not to mention the fourth years.
2007 have been kind of great...Maybe slightly...
Though times were sad or happy ...But erm, I pull through it...And those happy times, I managed to savour the taste of happiness.
Secondary two life were great...Though slightly stressful, But everyone managed to pull through those stress right?
I have a lot of new year resolutions...
Haha...
Hope the year ahead would be a better one for everyone & for me

today went to weiliang's house
Lol, erm. Damn embarrassing when I KEEP on calling her the wrong name "Weiliang"
=S
Lol and had a fun time =]

2007-12-23T19:24:00.000-08:00

A song for all mamas.The song's real nice.

Today is christmas eve.
Merry christmas
May santa grant each and every of our wish

Will Santa come?

2007-12-19T07:08:00.000-08:00

It isn't much of a want actually...
Just...some...feeling that soon got jaded...

Anyway...It's so common to really want something so much
When you got it.
You think back and you'd go "Hey, I didn't really want it that much"
Lol

2007-12-17T03:13:00.000-08:00

Continued from previous post
As i said
This post is for letting me remember.

Genting was really great...
And I still can't get enough
And I am so afraid of not being able to be there next year...
"Studies are more important, stay in singapore and study"
That's what I really fear my mom might say you know...
The scenery in Genting...

When you looked out of the windows...It's foggy...
And it just seems like you're in heaven
That cold icy feel on your skin...14 degrees
Shiok

Lol Auntie struck jackpot ...And we get to eat pizza
Pasta is nice!
NiNi,YangYang,Han Han,Xiu Xiu,Peggy,Haurshan jiejie,my bro,I roamed around Genting ...
Lol and we bought santa hats...And wore it
COOL!
Christmas is coming=]

At Anson, i have real long chats with my cousins during long car trips
They were very good hosts...
And we talked about loads of stuff.
Education systems in malaysia and singapore
And I knew alot more about certain issues...

Sometimes, it's kind of fruastrating and annoying at the same time disappointing to know certain things
And so lucky that I am a singaporean

And can you believe it that I am actually counting down the days to chinese new year...
MALAYSIA HERE I COME

2007-12-16T06:36:00.001-08:00

This entry's meant for me to reminsce
You can dont read it

Everytime I am on this return trip, I got this "Back-to-reality" feeling
It's really disturbing, to feel that way, like you know, you can't really lead that kind of play-all-day lifestyle?
Haha.For me it's really not enough,I childish what and love fooling and playing

Huilin Jie Jie was really beautiful...
At her wedding, She looked real happy...
A happy bride...It's good to see a bride smile all day long, and good that she got a loving husband...
Haha

It's cool...Real great to mix and play around with cousins,nieces...
I got a niece that I love playing with
For one thing we have in common
We are crazy people
But she is crazier than me
With laughter that really can't stop and laughter that really can keep you awake the whole night that results you in only sleeping for less than 5 hours...Power ba?
And oh she really can sing...

Weddings in Malaysia is so cool
Its a two-day thing
The first day,
Is just a dinner at restaurant that is paid by the female side...
And yea, ate dinner, crapped with cousins & nieces =]
Then there's this karaoke thing,
And I got NO comments when my brother went up there.
And some can really sing
Then slept real late...lol because of my niece crapping with me...And the next morning, the real actual thing...
As in we had lots of fun thinking of ideas to "fool" the groom

Ideas and actions we actually did to the groom lol:

1) Cut a small bittergourd into real small pieces and mix it with coffee powder(Bitter)
Get red bean soup(sweet)
Get ready a cup of sour plum (sour)
Spread chili sauce with extra chopped green chili on pieces of bread (hot)
2) Get two bottles of softdrinks,those 1.5litres or is it 1litres? And stack straws up and got him to suck the drink up

The groom reached...Honking real loud...
And he got in after handing over a hongbao
Those outside got him to eat up the sweet sour bitter hot stuff up and got him to drink it up
Whether did he really ate up and drank it al up I dont really know cause I am inside the room
And yea, the most fun part
Is demanding hongbaos and the door-pushing thing lol
And huilin Jie Jie got the groom to sing a song
Lol though it's out-of-tune, but accepted by everyone

The wedding ceremony were great
Though slightly boring
But oh wells
With the company of cousins and nieces
It's been a great trip =]
Ah, I love malaysia
Haha

Then after the four days in Anson, the place where the wedding is held
We went to Genting highlands
Real curvy roads that snaked up the mountains,and the vehicle got to turn here and there...
Headache Lol
I love genting
And I HATE THE WEATHER
It rained for the consecutive two days and everyone can't get to play outdoor...
Crap ,And this morning when I am about to leave for singapore, the sun is up there...
~_~
So Yea, in the end, never touch theme park rides
But do more interesting stuff...
Bowling Haha.Going to bowling reminds me of the 6-joy gathering...and how caoyun and lyda bowl ...hehe
I am the second worst bowler out of eight
LOL
Then we watched movies...For two days....
Enchanted is a great hilarious movie...The chipmunk can really crack me up
I am legend...All the while I am like covering my ears and eyes...It's too gory...A touching movie , and the effects were fantastic...Will Smith's great
Then we played the arcade machines
And Shopped

2007-12-09T22:35:00.000-08:00

Ah this is so crap
Lol I can't converse well to most people
Oh my god, always in a loss for words.
Then end up, People whom I conversed to go "HUH?""HUH?"
Hmm sorry ah

2007-12-09T02:49:00.000-08:00

Holiday homework almost completed.
Still left with a composition to go.

Homeworks suck

SEA games turned out well for singapore
Winning lots of medals.
Go team singapore

Got to be real serious.
Deal with it and I am done

Stay in that attitude,
Change suddenly for what?

2007-12-07T07:24:00.000-08:00

Hwang Jin Yi
Twenty four episodes
Draggy and sad

It depicted unfairness in the past
Hierachy and all that
People being divided into classes
And the laws, that is supposedly to be fair, yet, being real unfair to those that belonged to the lower castes

And being a courtesean, really is a sad thing
They might be called prostitutes, maybe they really were, I dont know what's the similarity

It feels weird at times...
Like there's something that really changed your attitude,
And I'd just go "What to do" "What to say" next
It sounds real dumb...
Dumb enough...
Seriously, at times I had enough
It's getting too nonsensical
And stop ignoring me
Cause.
I had enough

Great...
Three more days...
Tuesday,and off I go

2007-12-05T08:23:00.000-08:00

We got thrashed by Raffles Girls
Competition's just this cruel
When one is happy, the other will be disappointed
It's obvious that we're losing for sure
But yea, It was worse than I thought
All along I am dealing with fear and those fast heart-beats rather than really concentrating on where i can place my shots
And I make ALOT of mistakes
Serving a high serve and I know it's fruastrating enough
Sigh sorry...
I know sorry doesnt cure anymore
But I am really sorry
I dont really know how to play

Sigh, and plus next year we're gonna have combined training and trainings in halls?
Just how to improve our skills
Maybe...a miracle might happen, Somehow

Why in heaven do I not have the confidence and getting so damn nervous during the game
Sigh
The pros are like born with the badminton skills

And you two, dont think too much...
Smile=]

I just wished I could get serious during trainings and having proper training grounds, now that it is real impossible
Sigh
Lesson is sort of learnt
It's scary...
The blaring lights and those pairs of eyes...

2007-12-04T04:58:00.000-08:00

well i lost my ability to really converse
shit
most of the time I start my conversations, before that, i did have some idea of what to say to that someone, anyone
then everyone i talk to , id end up not being able to express myself

tomorrow
Jiayou atiqah, and jiayou roujing and limting!

2007-12-03T08:04:00.000-08:00

Happy ...
If I say I am not happy, I would be lying right?

Happy that the fact we got luck
Well at least for once...
Its not that the others are weak, they just happen to get really strong opponents, those from high schools, girls schools and stuff.

Jiayou atiqah!And of course, limting and roujing , JIAYOU!
And goddess, I am stoning there, while she completed most of the rally...
Deeply ashamed...

First part of the match, I cant really really concentrate
Sweating like shit
Its real scary to step onto the green patch of courts, the floor there's rougher.And somehow, felt more stressful
Most of the time, it's not the game that we really are concentrating on, But the points...
And that's what really distract us...And I keep making mistakes.Sigh Sorry
At the later part, I felt more calm.

Why SBA at Geylang
I felt so UNCOMFORTABLE walking the streets
Well, everyone is
Just glance around the streets, I'd dare not go there ALONE
Its scary!

Its been really hard...
Hard to really well, put the rest of it behind