Failed chemistry again...
How I wish I could live up to her expectations...
It's really terrible...Really terrible to live down those standards
I felt bad and perhaps that's why everytime I sees her,
I feel guilty.
Maybe it's just me not putting in effort, maybe it's just this...
But who else are we to blame, We can't blame the paper, for the paper is easy,we can't blame the teacher, for she's gone through everything, I can only blame me and myself, for not working hard enough, it sucks, to fail... and it's just me being stupid...
Oh great...
I'm getting more paranoid and being such a pessimist...

Ms phoon talked to me, and she told me that I'm a timid person, from her inferences, she concluded that I'm scared of teachers, and yes I do, certain teachers, but teachers that are friendly like her, I ain't really afraid... Everyone, like let's say, the aged, they I am sure, that they're afraid of doctors, well doctors have this 杀气 and after consulting doctor,doctors'd diagnosed their illness as this and that, and it really got them so worried about their health and so , so of course, they'd be scared at the thought of clinic visits. For students, well, now, in this world, most , for some are not afraid of teachers, so and that's one of the many ways how teachers have power over the students, because we "fear" them. Who aren't " scared " of persons of a higher authority that yourself, another example, an employee, will always fear the boss... Sigh... Like hey, I wished I had the courage also ya, I mean who don't....
Well, my mind just went empty, for one moment after hearing that, and she continued... saying that I had no confidence in myself, and again, yes I do, well, most times, I don't feel confident at all, I mean... There's reasons why ... And whether if one is confident or not really really depends on what circumstances you're dealing with or what kind of situations you're in.

During training, i just felt very happy...
For what reasons I don't know... Perhaps at the prospect of sleeping for really long hours make me so hype...Funny how little things bring such joy to you for awhile so...

Here's a video which I really realy find it funny...Enjoy and LAUGH OUT LOUD