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Thursday, 31 January 2008

@ 04:51

Well...
West zone is over for us...
Though we can't get to the next round...But

Today just sucks ...
I just hate today...
I don't know...Most of the time, I just sat and day-dream...And I really love to be alone, which is unusual...But it just got me, that feeling... and just think and think. I thought...

Indeed, an expression don't just show all that's in you...You smile, but there's many things going behind a smile...when you cry, there's lots more behind the watery tears.When frowning, those facial lines don't just express how annoyed you are. These expressions, just some rough idea, just a mask over your face...just some things to conceal your real feelings.

All awhile, I kept thinking about her...Somehow, All disliked her.But whatever...

I got scolded by him also... Maybe all awhile I've been childish. But childish made me happy...If not...what other joys can I find in this school. It's just so different from primary schools... You run, play, shout, no one even turn to look at you. Now, you shout, play, be rowdy... And you'd just get caught and they'd go "Stop being childish" Then there's going to be misunderstandings, then people's going to hate you...

And oh, speaking of hatred.I was really disturbed...Just so weird... there's a great story-teller, not stories or fairy tales that you get to see on shelves, but some random idiotic twists of facts and it's just how stupid someone'd go around telling "stories"

I felt so sinful...I think I've really did alot of wrongs...
First...maybe getting out of the bus,when they pulled me. actually I just... wanted to stay, then it's like i saw the bus-driver's expressionless face, and these kind of faces are just scary, and he just stopped, waiting for me to response, for me to press the bell.So just got off...I am sorry...

Secondly... Maybe mr lim is right... All awhile I am that childish, rowdy...Well...I agree with him. Well that's me...And I won't change, even if I think he's right. And that I am very wrong..

Thirdly and lastly, just feeling like I've done something wrong... Just something that can't be shook off my mind...And i think I did something really wrong... Pardon me for my idiocy...

Haha...

Yesterday was fun.

Shall stop here...

Great that I did blog, at least I can breathe without those homeworks... I'd get used to it...A matter of time.