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Friday, 25 January 2008

@ 06:56

It's been real buzy week
And yes finally weekends
I love weekends and by the way, who doesn't?

During this week, the tournament starts...
I felt very weak...
Simple shots I can't retrieve, I dont know why, I stood like as if there's roots growing out of my legs,planting me into the grounds, I can't help but divert attention away from the shuttlecock, then worry about whether if we're going to make it or not, that's not it, and the faces of our opponents, totally distract me, and I fear ... Every moment that we're going to get smashed, i don't have the belief in myself anymore...Somehow, it seemed all so difficult...I just hoped....Just prayed... I had a game that I really won't sit down and then regret, and then think, " hey, why didn't i move" ...
Every loss, it... I know, disappoints a lot of people...Firstly, the captains... of the previous batches and Shahirah and jerelyn and of course our own batchmates...It made us seem useless... really useless on the courts...It's like really hitting air...And then feeding the opponets shutters to let them smash hard at us, Though we might not really capable of winning, but oh wells, let's not lose hope... Jiayous all...

The next two matches are going to be tough
"If we can't then we must"

Then ...
I got really disturbed...
Really disturbed.Really fruastrated.
For the fact that, there's this... whom keep comlpaining...
Fine... somehow, like, for once, the whole world owe you something
Don't deceive yourself...For goodness sake... Stop being so childish and keep your words to yourself.